First of all, I'm sorry
that I didn't write on Monday. It was a public holiday
so President changed preparation day to today. This week has been a good week,
but really hard. We got to go to leadership council at the mission home because
my companion is a sister training leader and that was awesome and way
inspiring. It also made me realize how blessed my companion and I have been
with success, and it's not because we are so good. We're not. We're both
newbies. We are definitely in a blessed area to be able to have the
success that we are having. God has been very good to us; not that He isn't to
other missionaries as well. After that meeting we were feeling so pumped to go
out and keep having success and putting in the work. We then proceeded to have
almost everything we planned fall through. No one opened their doors and all of
our lessons went pretty badly and even more of our investigators dropped us. It
was so frustrating. We had so much faith and we were working so hard and then
it was SLAM SLAM SLAM. I was so frustrated with myself. I wanted to know what I
was doing wrong. Why could I not help these people progress?! I just wanted
these people to come to have this joy and happiness that I have. My heart was
in the right place. Then the zone leaders brought down our mail. I had some
amazing birthday cards from you all and then a PACKAGE!!! Honestly, that was
exactly what I needed that day. The CD was perfect. Every song was healing.
Thank you so much for doing that. It meant the world to me. Also, the
conference calendar was perfect too. I went to the day it was first and it was
the quote by Elder Holland about not worrying if you don't know everything.
Just hold on to the ground you have already won. It was perfect. Thank you for
sending that package. It made a very hard day so much better. It helped me
remember that I can do this. And beyond that, God continued to answer my prayer
of how I can help people progress in so many ways. One of the big ones was in
zone meeting. The zone leaders started off by saying, "today we want to
talk to you all about how we can help our investigators progress." Wow.
God is so kind to me. It was just what I needed to hear. My companion and I
were also able to do a training on how the BOM answers questions of the soul
and the Spirit guided us to say things even though we felt so under qualified
being the newest missionaries in our zone. After the meeting, the zone leaders
called us to thank us and they made a point of saying to not be too hard on
ourselves and that we were doing a great job which was exactly what I needed to
hear. God overwhelms me with answers to my prayers. It's amazing. I feel so
blessed. I know I say this every week but I can't even begin to explain how
kind God has been to me. Even though this week has been really hard for many
reasons, He helped me by sending me tender mercies all along the way. My
favorite phrase has become “God is good
to me." It helps me remember that all of these blessings I am
receiving aren't because of me and my greatness but because of Him. What a
blessing. Thank you all for your love and prayers. :)
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