Tuesday, July 1, 2014

letter.sixty.six 06.30.14 the beginning of the end

I honestly cannot believe that the transfer is already over. This has been the fastest six weeks of my life. It's been an amazing transfer here in Kalgoorlie with Sister K. It's been like a dream, I have loved it so much. 




The highlight of the week was without a question the baptism on Sunday. It was so beautiful. I loved it so much. Everything went so well. The talks were perfect and the Spirit was so strong. The girls were so ready. I love baptisms. I am always reminded at baptisms how much this isn't me at all. This is all because of God's goodness and kindness in letting me participate in someone coming to really know Him and make this first covenant. It is truly a blessing from God. It actually is a bit frustrating to me when try to tell us that it's because we're so good as missionaries or because of us somehow. It's not at all. I have been good and worked hard my whole mission and it's moments like these that come because God blesses us to be apart of this miracle, not because we're such good missionaries. I am so thankful for that knowledge. It sometimes feels like many members and missionaries just don't understand that concept. 




Honestly, there have been some trying moments for me this week. There have been times when I've been pushed to the edge of my limits, by different situations, but I have been blessed to remember that God is with me. I feel Him near.

Something I struggled with this week is not being able to feel things as strongly. I am a passionate person. I like to feel things deeply. I used to cry all the time when I felt the Spirit back home, but sometimes on my mission I find that I don't cry and I kind of associate that with not feeling the Spirit very strongly. I know that's not true, but it's confusing for me at times. Especially when my companion cries a lot. I know a lot of it was because it was her last week, but still sometimes I just want to feel something more than blah. It's something I'm still struggling to not let it get to me. I know that God will guide me though. I know that He is with me, even if I don't feel all of the dramatic feelings that I normally do. I am thankful for His understanding nature and His guiding hand. 

Things don't always go according to plan, but when we love God and all of His children He helps us through, as we focus on that. I have felt Him helping me as I pray for patience. Not that there has been anything massive, but I think Satan was trying to ruin this last week of the transfer, but I just refused to let him. It ended up being a wonderful week, full of beautiful lessons and discussions with some awesome people whom I love very much. 



God is so good to me. I am excited to continue to give it my all this last six weeks. I love Kalgoorlie and it couldn't be a more perfect place to end my mission. I love the people, I love the ward, I love the work and I love the town. It's a great place to be. 

I feel so blessed to be a missionary with all of the experiences that come with it. I love being able to wear a badge over my heart and to teach people about the truth. I think being a missionary is one of the best things I have ever done for my personal progression. I am excited to see the kind of progress that Heavenly Father has in store for me in this last transfer. I know the progress won't end there, but rather, set me up for continuous progression throughout the rest of my future. I love that about the gospel of Jesus Christ. We can change! We can continue to change. None of us is stuck. We have, through the Atonement, the power to reach greater heights than we would ever be able to on our own. 

I love this gospel. I love the eternal truths that it teaches. I love the process of striving everyday to become better and better. I am so thankful that we always have the opportunity to repent and to try to master our weaknesses. 

I love you all. I am so thankful for you love and support. I know I say that every week but I really am. More than you'll ever know. 


Much love,


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